Saying goodbye to the old me on the day before surgery.

Today is my day before surgery.  It seems almost as significant of a day as tomorrow will be.

Today is the last day of my old life and that is what makes today so significant.  I can still back out of surgery and go take care of that food craving then I can go back to being me.  The fat me.  The me that will probably not be around to raise my daughters.  The me that is not wanting to be fat.   The me that wishes I would never have gained the weight I gained since high school.  That me is now gone. 

I have battled all of my inner food demons since may.  I gave in a few time, but ultimately I won!   I am now ready to begin my new life.  I am ready to be live long enough to hopefully see my duaghters have chidlren.  I am ready to be the thinner me I used to be.  I am ready to "want" to be me instead of wishing I "wasn't like this".  I am ready!


Watch out world, A BETTER ME is coming out!!!