I have 10 more days to go before surgery. I am starting to feel a bit more excited than I am scared. I can finally see the result of the weight I have lost. I have been searching through my clothes for what I will wear on the day of surgery to keep as a reminder of my pre-surgery weight. I found a new blouse I purchased online and could never fit into. That made me feel good. All of my pants are stretchy. I am not sure what I am going to do about bottoms to refer to. I know I won't be going out and buying some new ones just to keep as a reminder of my before weight.
It has now been 5.5 days since I started the pre-op diet. I am not starving. I can pretty much eat as much as I want as long as I stay in the accepted food list. I am hungry, more than likely because I can't eat whatever I want. My biggest problem is I want just "one more" taste of homemade pizza. Notice, I didn't say one more bite. I want a taste, which in my old life it could mean a few slices to the whole pizza. I have come a long way and am realizing more and more each day that I am ready to make a lifestyle change. I was frustrated for a bit over the pre-op diet since I wasn't seeing the scale move. So, I didn't get on the scale today either. It hasn't moved since last Friday. :(
Pre-op diet isn't the easiest thing on earth. I am very restricted and somethings I just don't like. I know I have hit a plateau. The last time I plateaued it was on salad. I think my body shut down. A co-worker brought it to my attention that I might be "starving" so I ate that night and the next morning I lost 1 pound. I am not eating the recommended 800 calories a day I am supposed to be eating. I am probably averaging about 300 or so. That isn't my intention. I am already tired of the protein shakes. I have a serious texture problem when it comes to certain foods. I know... how in the heck did I get so big??? I can have sugar free foods like pudding and jello. I will admit the puddings taste good I just can't handle the texture in my mouth for very long. It gags me. The jello is worse. I have a funny story about the jello. I have been telling my 2 year old I am dieting and I have diet food. I tried to eat a sugar free jello yesterday and I made it about half way through the container. I decided to give the rest to my girls. When I gave my oldest a spoonful she looked at it funny and said "its not diet anymore"? Poor girl, I am warping her mind. I also have to be careful to not say I don't like it either because then all of a sudden she won't like it and they looovvvee jello.
Needless to say, I will stay on the pre-op diet and continue on for 8 more days. Day 9 is only clear liquids (no protein shakes either). Day 10 is Surgery.
I still want pizza. :(