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Blog Disclaimer: When I write I don't have an outline or such. I write off of the top of my head. I don't even bother to edit. If I were to edit I feel I would change the post entirely. I post what I feel at that given moment. It may even jump around a bit. Read at your own discretion. =)

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Its been over a year. I'm starting over.

Its been over a year since my last post.  Here is the run down.

I have had a new port put in at 10 months post op.  I had my gall bladder taken out at the time the port was redone.  I had almost all of the fluid taken out during that surgery. 

I have had a couple of unfills.  The last time I had a fill the strangest thing happened.  They inserted the needle, you know that feeling when it first hits the port, well I felt that then that is when I look at the syringe (sometimes I can't look at all), this time it feels so weird so I am definitely looking.  My body expelled over 2ccs of fluid.  The nurse was surprised as well as the surgeon.  I was supposed to go in yesterday for a fill, but my surgeon was in surgery.  I will be going in next Tuesday and hoping to get a fill.  I couldn't even tell you how much fluid I have right now, I think about 4 ccs, maybe a little less. 

Needless to say, I am wide open, under tremoundous amount of stress, and eat like a cow. 

I am going to start here and reread what I have posted.  Hopefully post more often.  Get my accountability back and become a better me. 

Have any of you gained weight?  I am almost as surgery weight.  So sad and disappointed.  I know the blame lies on me. 

I will say, today is the first day I wasn't able to eat due to my stress.  Hopefully that is a changing point. 

Have a great day all!

Tuesday, April 26, 2011


Well, I just got the results of the HIDA scan. My gallbladder is functioning @ 10%. Dr said that isnt even working. Dr contributes rapid weight loss as the cause.

On to another surgery. Second one this year if you count the breast biopsy.

Hopefully my port will get fixed at the same time since I rquested my lap band surgeon. :)

At least i know the pain wasnt imagined. I was beginning to wonder.
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Sunday, April 3, 2011

Bruised port site

18 attempts to access port :(
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I miss all of you. I need my accountability back.

So much has happened since my last post.  Some of it good, some of it not so good. I am just going to post off of the top of my head and hope I get it all out there. 

I still haven't found employment.

I have gained a few pounds.  :(  I'm going to get back in control, my clock is ticking.

I broke up with Ron.  We remain friends and ALWAYS will.  He is a wonderful man.  The girls miss him terribly. 

I had a breast biopsy that was negative.

Still trying to find out what the pain in my upper right quadrant is.  It gets to the point where I even feel like I popped out a rib.  It comes and goes, yet the spot is always tender. 

I took myself out of the weight loss challenge... I missed a weigh in the weekend of my biospy and well, just didn't want to get on the scale. 

I found that beer goes down like water. As does soda and anything else I want to drink. 

I still drink while eating.  I just can't get over it. 

My port now turns around in my belly.  The front/top goes to the back and it just keeps happening. 

Last fill I was poked about 20 times... 18 actually. 

She, my surgeon used 3 different packages trying to give me an adjustment. 

The fill was finally done with me standing, bent over as in a back bend with my tummy sticking out.  Success. 

I will post a pic of the bruise. 

Eventually the port will have to be fixed.  I assume to my muscle and if I remember correctly that is where I hurt the most post surgery.

On the last adjustment my surgeon took all the fluid out.  I got to walk around with a needle sticking out me while the nurse held it in place.  Did you all know the fluid inside is blue??? It's a very pretty blue too.

I still don't think I have the restriction I would like.  First meal of the day is much smaller than my others. 

I still eat my 3 meals a day for the most part.  I try not to snack, but I will on nuts. 

I haven't found anything I can't eat.  :( 

I am finally getting "stuck"... or at least a whole lot of pain when I eat and don't chew well.  Chewing wasn't a problem before.  I think this fill changed that.  The pain is at the bottom of my breast bone.  Anyone else have this pain?  Is that getting stuck pain?

Sometimes water gurgles.  Hasn't stopped me any.  I was actually hoping I wouldn't be able to eat.  That just sounds awful doesn't it?

My girls are as perfect as can be... or so I would like to think. 

Life is good.

I finally see some hope for the fututre in a very positive way. 

I hope you all are doing well.  My google reader said I had over 1000 posts to catch up on.  I don't think I will find the time to catch up, but I will definitely start reading again.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

I need to blog more so I will start with this.

(A) Age: 42

(B) Bed Size: Queen. I want a Cal King again that way I can roll around more and add more pillows.

(C) Chore You Hate: I am not a domestic goddess... I hate to clean.  So, everything!

(D) Dogs? One, her name is Karma, she is a poodle... If you were to ask my sister she would tell you Karma isn't even part of the canine family.

(E) Essential Start Your Day Item: My daughters :)  I need a drink of something cold to get going.
(F) Favorite Color: Hot Pink
(G) Gold or Silver? Silver

(H) Height: 5'5" is what I said my whole life.  I found out I am actually 5'5'' & 3/4. 
(I) Instruments You Play: I used to play piano, clairnet, sax.

(J) Job Title: currently unemployed... Housemom?
(K) Kids: Two daughters ages 2 and 3.

(L) Live: For my daughters!
(M) Mom's Name: Linda

(N) Nicknames: Ang, Angy
(O) Overnight Hospital Stays? Yes, Can't say that I liked it.  When I broke my ankle I was so drugged  I thought I was calling my mom and left myself a message on my phone. 
(P) Pet Peeve: People who don't say good morning or hello back to you. 
(Q) Quote from a Movie: "Don't worry, if the devil is real God is too". From the move The Devil.
(R) Right or Left Handed? Right

(S) Siblings: Sister and brother.
(T) Time You Wake Up? At all times.  I have become an insomniac.  :(
(U) Underwear: Yes!!!  High Cuts
(V) Vegetable You Dislike: Mushrooms. EWWW!!!
(W) What Makes You Run Late: Just being me.  My girls give me a challenge with their unpredictablilty in the mornings. 
(X) X-Rays You've Had Done: Many! 
(Y) Yummy Food You Make: Folded tacos fried in lard... I'm Mexican.
(Z) Zoo, Favorite Animal: The BIG, GIANT CATS!!!  2nd are the hippopotamuses. 

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

BOOBS 2011

Can someone give me the email address of who the point of contact is for BOOBS 2011?

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

I thought I was back

Hi everyone, I keep thinking I am back and life just gets a hold of me and doesn't let go.

I had my 3rd fill.  It was a baby fill.  I notice in the mornings I am much tighter and have to "prime" myself so I can eat.  I remember reading that from some of the blogs and thought how strange... well, it isn't

I have a question for all you...

Do any of you know how to make my blog private?  I'm not worried about going "under" and hiding who I am.  I am more concerned with people that have no business knowing how my life is to look into my life.  I know there are a few blogs where I had to request to be able to read their blog.  Does anyone know how to do that?

Have a great day all!