Today is my Friday. I didn't have an awful week just a normal week, but I am so tired. On my way to pick up the girls from daycare after work all I could think about was stopping at Redbox to get Tinkerbell for the girls to watch and having pizza for dinner. Sounded like the perfect "Friday" night end of the work week type of thing to do until I realized I can't have pizza.
How could this have happened? Today was the first day I haven't thought about my band and automatically reverted back to my old ways. How could I have forgotten I have a band on my stomach? How could I have almost relapsed back to my old life prior to May 18th when I started my diet to lower my BMI? Back then pizza & movies went together and I would have had pizza every night if possible. How could I actually be disappointed I couldn't have pizza? I just want to know how could I???
I can honestly say that the one and only time real food bothered me was a week post-op and I went in a restaurant out of town. I have been able to be in restaurant and not feel I am suffering. People can order anything they want and I can handle seeing them eat it. I am ok with this. I have psychologically been okay with the "loss" of food in my life. I made the decision to give up my old lifestyle. I have no regrets. I just don't know how I could have forgotten I have a band.