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Thursday, September 23, 2010

How could I?

Today is my Friday.  I didn't have an awful week just a normal week, but I am so tired. On my way to pick up the girls from daycare after work all I could think about was stopping at Redbox to get Tinkerbell for the girls to watch and having pizza for dinner.  Sounded like the perfect "Friday" night end of the work week type of thing to do until I realized I can't have pizza. 

How could this have happened? Today was the first day I haven't thought about my band and automatically reverted back to my old ways.  How could I have forgotten I have a band on my stomach? How could I have almost relapsed back to my old life prior to May 18th when I started my diet to lower my BMI? Back then pizza & movies went together and I would have had pizza every night if possible. How could I actually be disappointed I couldn't have pizza?  I just want to know how could I???

I can honestly say that the one and only time real food bothered me was a week post-op and I went in a restaurant out of town.  I have been able to be in restaurant and not feel I am suffering.  People can order anything they want and I can handle seeing them eat it.  I am ok with this. I have psychologically been okay with the "loss" of food in my life.  I made the decision to give up my old lifestyle. I have no regrets. I just don't know how I could have forgotten I have a band.  


  1. It doesn't mean you can't have pizza. I've had pizza. It just means maybe you have one or two slices instead of four or five.

  2. I know...sometimes those fun food-related "rituals" are hard to let go of, but I think you can still have pizza, but like Blossom said, just not as much! And you won't WANT as much either because of your band! That's the tool working for you!

    Also - have you tried the California Pizza Kitchen frozen pizzas from your grocery store? They have the thin crust pizzas that are really REALLY good and lots less calories & fat than a regular pizza. Maybe that can be a fun, occasional alternative in small portions? I've had the "white" pizza from them since being banded... it's cheese and spinach pizza, basically. But they have a Margherita variety that is good too!

    My nutritionist always reminds us that it's a balancing act. So, in that case if we "splurge" on one thing, we can make up for by watching calories more closely for the rest of the week or a little extra exercise!

  3. Remember you've only had your band a few weeks - you've developed these eating habits over YEARS. You didn't forget you have a're just feeling healed. Every bandster I follow has eaten pizza - some of them regularly - just a lot less of it.

  4. Awww..don't be so hard on yourself. You can still have pizza (if you can get it to go down). Probably just one slice instead of 2, 4 or 5. Remember this isn't a diet it's a lifestyle change. You can live your normal human life but just eatting a lot less now. *hugs*

  5. I still have pizza - we usually have it every Friday night. I get the thinnest crust I can order, and have it loaded with protein - so usually just chicken (or double chicken) and light sauce. :)

    Being banded does not mean you can't eat it. It just means you won't be eating four or five slices like before. Maybe 1 to 2 if that. (Depending on the size) :)

    Don't be too hard on yourself. We have a lifetime of food habits that we're trying to break. It doesn't happen overnight.

  6. There are healthier choices of pizza! For instance, my fav is Pizza Hut Thin Crust, with chicken, red onions, light sauce. I dip in buffalo sauce for a kick. You can make pizza, with wheat crust.

    You don't have to give up all the yummy things :)

  7. I still have pizza! I try to order thin crust though, but unless there is a reason why you can't (stuck) then why can't you have it? 1 slice if it fits into your daily calories is not going to kill you! Now, if you ate pizza for every meal every day-maybe thats not so good!