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Sunday, April 3, 2011

I miss all of you. I need my accountability back.

So much has happened since my last post.  Some of it good, some of it not so good. I am just going to post off of the top of my head and hope I get it all out there. 

I still haven't found employment.

I have gained a few pounds.  :(  I'm going to get back in control, my clock is ticking.

I broke up with Ron.  We remain friends and ALWAYS will.  He is a wonderful man.  The girls miss him terribly. 

I had a breast biopsy that was negative.

Still trying to find out what the pain in my upper right quadrant is.  It gets to the point where I even feel like I popped out a rib.  It comes and goes, yet the spot is always tender. 

I took myself out of the weight loss challenge... I missed a weigh in the weekend of my biospy and well, just didn't want to get on the scale. 

I found that beer goes down like water. As does soda and anything else I want to drink. 

I still drink while eating.  I just can't get over it. 

My port now turns around in my belly.  The front/top goes to the back and it just keeps happening. 

Last fill I was poked about 20 times... 18 actually. 

She, my surgeon used 3 different packages trying to give me an adjustment. 

The fill was finally done with me standing, bent over as in a back bend with my tummy sticking out.  Success. 

I will post a pic of the bruise. 

Eventually the port will have to be fixed.  I assume to my muscle and if I remember correctly that is where I hurt the most post surgery.

On the last adjustment my surgeon took all the fluid out.  I got to walk around with a needle sticking out me while the nurse held it in place.  Did you all know the fluid inside is blue??? It's a very pretty blue too.

I still don't think I have the restriction I would like.  First meal of the day is much smaller than my others. 

I still eat my 3 meals a day for the most part.  I try not to snack, but I will on nuts. 

I haven't found anything I can't eat.  :( 

I am finally getting "stuck"... or at least a whole lot of pain when I eat and don't chew well.  Chewing wasn't a problem before.  I think this fill changed that.  The pain is at the bottom of my breast bone.  Anyone else have this pain?  Is that getting stuck pain?

Sometimes water gurgles.  Hasn't stopped me any.  I was actually hoping I wouldn't be able to eat.  That just sounds awful doesn't it?

My girls are as perfect as can be... or so I would like to think. 

Life is good.

I finally see some hope for the fututre in a very positive way. 

I hope you all are doing well.  My google reader said I had over 1000 posts to catch up on.  I don't think I will find the time to catch up, but I will definitely start reading again.


  1. Sorry to hear about the break up. You will be fine. Concentrate on you and the girls. Glad to also know that the breast biopsy was negative.

  2. wow, where to begin.

    Glad the biopsy was negative. And I'm sorry about Ron.

    I'm glad to hear that the girls are doing good.

    Hang in there. I've missed your posts.

  3. Goodness. So much going on. Sorry about the troubles you've been having. Hoping the future looks brighter to you.