Its been over a year. I'm starting over.

Its been over a year since my last post.  Here is the run down.

I have had a new port put in at 10 months post op.  I had my gall bladder taken out at the time the port was redone.  I had almost all of the fluid taken out during that surgery. 

I have had a couple of unfills.  The last time I had a fill the strangest thing happened.  They inserted the needle, you know that feeling when it first hits the port, well I felt that then that is when I look at the syringe (sometimes I can't look at all), this time it feels so weird so I am definitely looking.  My body expelled over 2ccs of fluid.  The nurse was surprised as well as the surgeon.  I was supposed to go in yesterday for a fill, but my surgeon was in surgery.  I will be going in next Tuesday and hoping to get a fill.  I couldn't even tell you how much fluid I have right now, I think about 4 ccs, maybe a little less. 

Needless to say, I am wide open, under tremoundous amount of stress, and eat like a cow. 

I am going to start here and reread what I have posted.  Hopefully post more often.  Get my accountability back and become a better me. 

Have any of you gained weight?  I am almost as surgery weight.  So sad and disappointed.  I know the blame lies on me. 

I will say, today is the first day I wasn't able to eat due to my stress.  Hopefully that is a changing point. 

Have a great day all!