As of today I only have 21 days until my surgery. I never thought I would even make it this far. I decided to write this blog after reading other blogs. I am writing mostly for myself and for my daughters. I am going to try to make this as short as I can as to how I came to be here with 21 days before me until my new life begins.
I originally wanted to have bypass surgery done for my vanity. I also felt that I had to be thin in order to find love. I have met someone that I call "Babe" and I met him at my heaviest weight in my entire life. He is a wonderful man and supportive of me and my decision. I originally checked into bypass in 2002 when I lived in California. It was actually submitted to my insurance for approval. Then I got laid off from my job and moved back to Arizona to mom and dad. Into their home and stayed there. I loved living with them. I was an adult "mooch". I lived a very selfish life and everything revolved around me, or so I thought.
Well, in July of 2008 I got custody of my oldest daughter "L", she was 9 months old. I knew bypass was not going to be for me because of how invasive it is. I decided on Lap Band. In January of 2009 I had finally saved up the money I would need in order to go forward with Lap Band. To my surprise, my 2nd daughter came to me on February 17, 2009, she was just 3 weeks old. "K" came to me on my grandmothers birthday. I know it was her way of telling me I was doing the "right" thing. In my heart I already knew I wouldn't let her go. In order to get "K" I had to move out of my parents house. I had a new home within 20 minutes. Thank you Kim... I moved into my friends home with both girls that night.
Needless to say life came in the way of my plans. As John Lennon said: "Life is what happens when you make other plans". In April of 2009 I was asked by CPS to move out of my friends home and get my own place. I was told that it would help with the adoption and look better for me that I could provide for my girls unassisted. So, all the money I had saved up went towards an apartment for "L", "K", and I. I had to buy everything for a 2 bedroom apartment. We basically only had our clothes and beds. After moving into our own place my only concern was taking care of my family and making sure I had everything that CPS would ever think of in order to prove that I was "fit" to adopt my girls. Keep in mind that this was going to be a "single parent" adoption. I had to prove my worth as a mother and father. I am proud to say that in November of 2009 I became a mother two of the most beautiful Angels that God could have given me. I love you "L" & "K".
I now had the motivation that made all the difference in the world... I had two children to raise and I wanted to see them grow up. I now knew it was time to make changes in my life. Since I was going to have the surgery done in 2009, I had already done everything my insurance required. In December 2009, my insurance at work changed. We now had a $2500 deductible... yikes. The good part was once you reached that everything was covered at 100%. I had an emergency room visit in late 2009 (luckily we had 4th quarter deductible carry over). Then in Jan 2010 I had to have an MRI. Voila! Deductible met. I knew I had a $1000.00 access fee for bariatric surgery. I was ready.
I went to the seminar in Jan 2010, turned in my paperwork and somehow it got a bit "lost". Once it was found we needed to get the info from my family Dr again. He was on vacation for a month. May 18th 2010, I have my first visit with the surgeon for Lap Band. YAY!!! So I thought.. WRONG. My BMI is too high. I need to lose 28 lbs before they will even submit it to the insurance. She asks me how long it will take me, I tell her 4 weeks. She says great, I will see you in 3 weeks. Needless to say, my 3rd visit was July 20, 2010. It took me 8 weeks to lose 28 lbs. I was prepared for the failure of not making my weight. I was so close that morning I wasn't sure if I would make it. Dr comes in and says surgery is Aug 19th pending insurance authorization. I will see you in 2 weeks for a weight check and then you can start the pre-op diet. I am on my way. I see the Dr again on August 3rd.
Here I am today, looking at the longest 21 days of my life. All the while I am wondering if my insurance is going to approve my surgery. I completed the 6 month Dr supervised diet in July 2008. That is within the 2 year guideline, however I am a bit concerned.
I have my fingers crossed. Until next time.Have a great day!