I feel better... lol

Can you tell I am stressed??? My daughter is in surgery right now and just ordering all that food made me feel better I know cant eat it all but I was hungry when I ordered. Mind over matter. My mind my never wrap around the idea that there is a band in my stomach to stop me from eating. That would have been a normal stress meal. Thank you band!

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Please Pray

Baby Isabella's NEC infection has not gotten better.  As soon as my Sister and my Niece (Isabella's Mommy) get to the hospital she will be air-ambulanced out of town.  We are not sure where to yet.  My sister will let me know. 

Please pray for God's will.  He has a reason for everything He does.  I still pray He doesn't take her but that has become a real possibility.  God is Great and His reasoning is not to be questioned. 

God, I love you and I am sorry I am a bit mad at  you right now!

I Wish Wednesday

Today my wishes are simple. 

I wish, hope and pray that Baby Isabella pulls through the NEC infection she has.  My sister says her belly is so distended that her skin is shiny from being stretched so much.  God, you can't have her.  Please stop giving her life threatening illnesses.  You have added weight to her little body and she now weighs 4 lbs 1 oz, you must want her to live.  Please heal her!

I wish for my youngest daughter to come through surgery with no complications.  I am also wishing for an easy recovery.  God, guide the Surgeon's hands as he operates on both her little eyes.  God, guide me so that I may be the mother that my baby needs tomorrow and during recovery. 

I am following Mary's Mary's Blog lead here,,, I wish I had clothes that fit too.  Since may I have lost 60 pounds and I am still wearing the same clothes.  The bottoms look worse than pajama bottoms.  It feels good to know I will never be that size again.  Yet, I look absolutely horrible.  Mama's needs come after the girls needs, after our new home, and after anything else that seems more important. 

I wish for my mini van not to be ready today so that I can take the rental Suburban to Phoenix for my daughters surgery tomorrow.

I also wish for all you to find a way through the struggles that are afflicting you all. 

Love ya!

Water drinking.

I haven't learned to not drink during a meal.  I know this is a "no, no" but I literally can not get the food down without a sip.  I also find myself drinking sooner than an hour after eating.  I am too "scared" to ask my Bariatric Nurse about the damage I am doing since my last 8 oz of eating question to her. 

Do any of you drink while you?  Am I damaging myself?

Could you send some advice over?

Love ya!

Do you burp as much as I do?

I am beginning to wonder if my burping is out of control.  I seem to NEED to HAVE to burp during and after every meal and snack. 

Am I doing something wrong?  Before surgery, I hardly ever burped unless it slipped out and was uncontrollable during a Diet Pepsi.  My sister use to laugh at me because I couldn't "force" myself to burp if my life depended on it.  Post surgery I was miserable because I couldn't burp.  Now I have to make myself burp by pounding on my chest or they just escape. 

I don't think this is a PB.  I hope its not the beginning of one that gets better after I burp.  I definitely feel better once I burp. 

Tell me your experience with burps. 

Have a great day all!

Walk From Obesity National Walk

I haven't heard much about this national walk.   My Bariatric center is sponsoring the walk.  We are the only one here in Arizona that is doing the walk.  I can't believe I have registered to walk.  It is this Saturday, October 9th.  Wish us luck. 

http://www.walkfromobesity.com/index.php

Sorry, you will have to copy and paste. 

If anyone wants to donate you go to:
- join a walk
- choose Yuma, Arizona
- sponsor a walker
- enter my name Angela Smith
- then donate.
 
I will have my girls along with me.  They will get to enjoy the nice stroller ride.   Smith Girls rock!!!


Here is the link to the brochure:  http://www.walkfromobesity.com/2010WalkBrochure.pdf

Catching up

I feel lost and alone for the last week. I haven't blogged since last week. I haven't left any comments and I miss you all.  Loved seeing all the pics from Chicago. Count me in for year 2. I am also sad for those people whose expectations of themselves or the weekend was not met.

Here is my life for the past week.  Long post warning.

- Had our companny BBQ last Saturday we had a great time. Friday was the employee only BBQ which is when the guys as work prepare the pit BBQ for Saturday. I have more fun on Fridays since everyone just let's loose and we have a good time. We even have a homemade craps table.  This year I took two girlfriends with me.  We all had a blast.  :)  Saturday everyone is busy with their families. My girls had a blast. They loved the 30 foot slide. 

- Tuesday my oldest daughter had surgery out of town. Surgery went well.  This was her 2nd surgery this year. Both were minor surgeries and unrelated. Her first surgery was a frenulectomy which was to separate her lip from her gum. My youngest will have the same surgery when she turns 2. That little piece of skin on the top of our gums inside her mouth was attached to the gum between her front teeth.  Her second surgery was to open her vagina. Her inner labia was aherred.  When I found it a year ago they gave me Premarin cream to try and open it.  I tried it various times over the year but it never opened. She has had a couple of bladder infections this year so they felt now was the time to do it.  Needless to say I was very stressed going into this surgery.  Thank you God for holding her hand through surgery. She is now as perfect as perfect can be.

- Also on Tuesday my youngest daughter had an appointment with her eye specialist.  I found out that the time has come for her eye surgery. It is now scheduled for the 7th which is next Thursday.  I have known this was coming but it doesn't make it any easier to handle. She is only 19 months old.

- Wednesday the hospital for my youngest daughter's surgery called to preregister her. She told me they were operating on both eyes. She said she would call the Dr to verify. Sure as heck they are going to do both eyes. :(  When she told me that I immediately felt the weight of the world fall on my shoulders.  I am terrified that they will be operating on her good eye too.  She has amblyopia and strabismis.  They have to do both eyes to position them properly. Aunt Pat is going to keep my oldest so I can concentrate on my baby.  This surgery means # 5 this year for a family of 3. Two for my oldest, two for me (sinus surgery which I was admitted to the hospital for & lap band). To say I am ready for a normal year is an understatement. 

- Baby Isabella doesn't need heart surgery. What a blessing. She is still in NICU & will be for at least another month.  For a premie she is doing well.

- I found a house to rent. It is a 3 bedroom 2 bath.  I am starting to get excited.  We will be moving on the 15th. My oldest is getting a fish and going into a toddler bed. 

- I have an appointment for my first fill. Which is on Oct 11th. Which is just days away from 8 weeks post op.

- Last Thursday was 6 weeks post op. I started on solids. Baby steps. First time I chewed I felt like I had stuff stuck in my teeth and they kinda felt weird after chewing.  Kind of like they were sore. 

- Thursday morning I woke up to a vandalized mini van.  I have lived here 18 months with no problems and they wait til my last 2 weeks here to cause trouble. Plus side I am in a rental. 2011 Suburban. It had 120 miles when I got in.  This has been my dream vehicle forever. I want to steal it.  :)   I am in love!

- Last night I went to dinner with my sister & Ron. We went to Olive Garden. The waitress was nice enough to let me share the all you can eat pasta with my girls.   I ordered the whole wheat pasta with alfredo sauce & chicken. My oldest didn't like the wheat pasta.  My youngest loved it. I ate all the chicken and tried the pasta. I didn't care for it. I did have some breadsticks. I had less than 1.5 and they went down so easy. Obviously I have no restriction.  However, by the time we were home I was miserable. I am sure everything expanded. I was bloated and even comtemplated going to the emergency room.  Remind me bread isn't good for me if I do it again. 

- Since last night I haven't been able to eat and I haven't been hungry. Breakfast was about 1/2 cup of refried beans. I couldn't eat anymore. I just had some soup. I finally feel hungry and I feel like I could eat a cow. I still feel uncomfortable though.

- Week 6 post op weigh in I only lost .4 of a pound. That is by far the least amount I have lost a week.  Even with that weight loss I am still a bit over a 2.5 lb weight loss per week.  Thank you band. :)

I think I am done updating for now. 

Have a great weekend all!